Randomly threw on a collection of MP3s last night, and the CD was
still in this morning when I started to attend to the aftermath.
It's basically a slightly filtered collection of MP3s from Honours.
Which is all a hopelessly nostagic case like me needs. Today, it
appears, is a day of remember-whens.
Which has it's own problems.
I can't believe I wasted so much time waiting for something so
inconsequential, when I managed to almost dismiss something of such
consequence. One of the MP3s puts in mind of another which is always
going to be hard to listen to. But I'll continue to listen to it
because it's important. And I hope, in some way that you have realised
that its important because you were important. Are important.
It may not have been forever, but it was. And that will have to be enough.
I battle when these moods come over me. it's as if the world is too
big and too small at the same time. It's hard to deal with
claustrophobia and agorophobia all rolled into one neat little
package. Outside there's too much of the world to drink in, while
inside the world is shut away and too much is happening and being
missed.
This always puts me in mind of you.
As I lay me down
-
Sophie B Hawkins
It felt like springtime on this February morning
In the courtyard birds were singing your praise
I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright
I carried them with me today, Now
As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy
I wonder why I feel so high
Though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted
Till you call my name
And it sounds like church bells
Or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening
I'll run to meet you
Barefoot barely breathing
As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy
It's not too near for me
Like a flower I need the rain
Though it's not clear to me
Every season has its change
And I will see you
When the sun comes out again
As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy